March 2013
12 posts
God’s gift has been annulled, and touch has been removed. Each loving kiss, simply slides off the skin and lands on the ground. Here i’ve been for fifteen minutes, secretly staring at the result of your action from the last fifteen seconds.
These hands of yours, grab onto each side of my heart and converge towards one another.
Endless questions, seeking reciprocation, reaching out...
Bound, a defenseless calf. The harvest of the living, the creation of a carcass. With love, feel my hands grasp the muscles of your throat.
From between the gaps of your teeth. Shined a light, a galaxy hidden within your shit eating grin.
At my peak, I fear the crash. My addiction hates me for even writing down these words. I Want to continue on, until I collapse. Once I hit the ground, i’ll pass into the second world. A world where things feel beautiful, where time passes in seconds.
At my peak, I imagine being even higher. I yearn to lose this physical body. I yearn to become so much more.
I write you off, as unfitting. Out of denial, but I will never know about what we could of been. I’m sorry, i’m sorry, i’m not sorry
Maybe, I could of been the man of your dreams
The two of us will be clueless, and it will go on and on, endlessly.
As real as trees hanging from rear view mirrors. Just tell me, who held you shivering. It’s too cold to go outside....
The weight of your stare, it’s bruising. I’m watching your skin crease as your mouth opens wide. Without any effort at all you say ” is anything wrong?”
As always, you’re tearing me apart. There is nothing new about this feeling. Anxiety has wrapped itself around my bones, and in your gaze I stand alone.
No time to reply. If there is too much thought, it...
How did you manage to do it? Make beauty stay, how do you manage to be okay. No matter how far ahead I get. I will always be only just keeping up. Trace my hand along the edge of your face, as if i’m tracing each and every star in the sky above.
White lace, every inch of you was painted. Sell my soul , take away what makes me profound. Our legion of addicts, my individuality weights me to the ground
Kiss me, my anchor, you love the way it wraps around. Ball and chain, our own individuality. For years they told us, please try and turn it down.
A mind unmade, dirty and spread out. Is this journey only to find one like the first?...
Do my best, hold my breath, hope for your future, and hope to never let you go. I’m feeling you leave my ears. No, please, I need this. Everything is leaving, and the moon kisses our sky goodbye. A hand moves it’s way up the wall, following it’s self made map. When you’re not even looking, it seems you find it all.
I’m feeling you leave my ears. No, please,...
This head of mine, sways with each line in the sidewalk. Hold it, maybe you’ll get it. Maybe, you’ll get it, this time. With all the flashing colors, and all the drinks passed my way. Two years in two minutes time, and nothing but regret is left deep inside me. Just tell me, are you nervous? Are you feeling a little sick. I’m falling asleep, in the passenger seat. Only to turn...
A love like an open field. Hoping that it doesn’t rain. Women who’s sadness could portray their beauty. Do your best, to hold yourself in your own hands. I just want a little bit for you and I. Hoping the street signs, will grow into something a little more to look at. I’m just trying to alert, in conversation or something like that.
With a head in my hand, with weight of time itself. Hold open the gates of heaven. Asking only for freedom from hell. Has earth become the third kingdom? A place eviler than anything we could ever imagine after wards.
December 2012
10 posts
If I hate everything else that is typical
Why Would I love a typical woman?
I love who you are,
No matter what they say
No matter how you look
If we discarded these vessels
What would change?
All you would be is perfection
Either way.
What you call love
What you call marraige
What you call moral
I look at, with a confused look of disgust.
Get away from me.
No matter what it is between us.
The wall of realms.
You will always be here,
Standing side by side,
An elder, you taught me what it was to fight the status quo
and Even after you leave
I will keep fucking fighting..
You said it best.
“Even though you are not my blood,
I will forever Love you like a son.”
I will forever fight for our opportunities,
I will...
Are you that abandoned house, with the old car abandoned out front? Are you one of our old friends who still hasn’t fallen in love? I wonder what you’re up to and who you’re spending time with, but I just don’t have the heart to ask.
There we stood, facing towards the sun. I felt your hand in mine for a second but then it was gone. In the graveyard we found your skull and your mouth, it’d never felt so warm .
Eyes worn with black around them, without any applied make up. An existence so sad, it choked us both. To look at you was a chore, and to hear your stories was even more.
A kiss like an anchor. The four of us...
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Minutes will turn to seconds, and soon you will be gone. The girl in every car trunk, and the woman on every missing poster. I want them to remember you for who you were. Lost and broken and always on the edge. To tell you the truth, I wish you the worst. My last wish is that the afterlife will disappoint more than I ever could.
play it slower, and hold my head back against the mattress after you do it. This is the rain we’d been praying for. Do things feel better finalized? Is it what you wanted?
I just wanted you to know, I don’t want to fall in love.
I just want you to watch me all day.
Tell me i’m your pet and promise that you’ll feed me. Tell me that while you were at work, you felt...
Say it again, this time out loud. Maybe, the words will ring with that truth you’ve spent your days aspiring for. Nothing you can do, you’re just young really. In time though, i’ll find a way to find you more interesting. I haven’t done anything wrong, so why do I feel like I need to make up for something.
Take my picture, I feel alone when your eyes aren’t on me. Honest truths are hard to find, but these awkward sleeping patterns don’t isolate me. This t shirt, jeans and the white walls feel like home for me. Let me sleep and i’ll let you watch. This is what perfection is, when i’m accompanied by you within dreams.
November 2012
8 posts
I sometimes wonder if we concur. About simple sentences, that mean the same thing. What is happening behind your eyes? Are you really looking at me? Just tell me the truth about everything
mary , etc
Feet marched one in front of the other. Following the roots, well hidden maps that only the lucky could decipher and read. Together, walking, relating, and growing apart by the second. Advice from outsiders, is just the unanswered question. Food for thought, has devoured you all. Loss, as a gain, when will you understand anything.
Just one match is what it takes, in the most desolate of days....
whispering to the shadows, you won’t find me here,
Not at home, not with anyone at all. I’m whispering only to the ghosts.
dawn
that worm revealed it’s head between my bites. The jaw of mine stuck open, but what was I to say. I couldn’t change what’d been planned to happen anyway. For hours and days on end, I fear taking one step into the world you live in. The long drawn out end, began at the very mention of our conclusion
Main character’s are always so confused. Aware of the plot line or simply avoiding the task at hand. Now, we are the ones who will make the decision. Of moving forward or moving inward. I never wanted to be a trigger but I ended up being an artifact.
Let the living make the decisions. When we can’t help but be led by the dead.
Deep down, we found a relic. Our books were wrong, the plot had been pointing in the other direction. We’d lost ourselves in the future, due to a fear for the past.
Tell me, do you feel foolish now? Stuck between everything and nothing at all? Life a gift, for only those who were present. Let me tell you this, being punctual pays off. Once your name’s been marked off, the afterlife...
An incessant reminder of what held you down all those years. The words she tried to say but were drowned out in tear. When you hear a knock at the door, I hope you know it’s come to an end.
All of the lights turned off, but I can still see your silhouette. There was always something wrong with you, but we could never put our finger on it. A voice that doesn’t echo, a lover who...
When you die , i’ll think for days about what could have been. I romanticize you, i don’t realize the truth. You would of let anyone take you that night, you would of let anyone yell at you for any reason for the years after.
October 2012
10 posts
Be my high school love. Be the one that i’m thinking of. Four years later, and you’re still on my treasure map. Four years later and I still wish you were the girl sitting in my lap. This guitar does it’s best, to try and say what I want to say. This stupid mouth of mine, is always tripping up when it’s doing it’s best.
Tonight, it’s time, for you to tell me,...
a a sall.
Let each and every word slip out from your lips. It’s hard to believe, but we don’t have to be drunk to be open about this. If you’re not happy then i’m not staying but it you think this is alright then i’m game for staying up all night. A beer on a coffee table, a quiet girl in the corner of the room. An uninterested dog caught up in your drunken cruise. Let’s...
Each time we leave town, it feels like we’re on tour. I don’t want to be the type of dude who tries hard to make my art exactly who we are. I just want to be here, with you, and every single one of you. Forever, or as long as that lasts for us. I’ll think about the mistakes I made. I’ll even think of the ones I keep on making.
The pictures I see of you happy, are...
Seven minutes of heaven: seven minutes i’d rather be sleeping. Just tell me that you like me and get it over it. I’ll be sleeping soon, and waking up wondering what happened last night. Tell me about your exes and your old friends. The people that you’re over now, and the people who you’d rather be with. How did you feel on new years eve, and how you felt a second after the...
just cause
Out of place in your own skin, feeling the legs of yours slip out from under you. This isn’t right, this isn’t how it should be. Waking up, questioning.
Here we are again,
Stars shine one by one, falling.
removed limb.
Let me be the oblivious lover , the over hanging moon, the bane of your existence. At times I find myself tripping over your words only to end up in your web again. Kiss me and tell me everything will be different.
Feed me everything i’ve had in the past, I don’t want this to be different. I want the same thing over and over again. An unhealthy relationship at a decrepit pace, I...
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September 2012
1 post
fdead
Black eye to the power of the third
I am lost on your words and
When our hands intertwine I find myself somewhere in the middle
Back to the wall, push away
Love coming at me like an ocean ,
I am lost on your breath
Painted red lips, be mine
I lose myself every second
On this stage ,
Collapse beneath us
Let evolution begin
Pushing yourself into the walls,
Losing what makes you...
August 2012
3 posts
In the forests of nagaku
There is an empty building
A warehouse where all our dreams
Our locked inside of it’s walls
Outside, the deers stear clear
Still,
The humans pace around it,
Slowly, silently,
With stories
It’s hard to hear nothing for so long
To see every color so quickly
As if meeting your wife, in two hours time,
Tattoos like cobwebs, and a brain that was more than half dead
We thought we`d put you to use
When your back gave out, we all roared out
Laughter, your name
vei
I see your mouth blabbering about curses as if you`ve ever felt one Until the moment we`d met you had just been posing for the cameras
Now, we catch you at the market casting off your soul for a few dollars and changed
When we meet your eyes twitch at the memory of my fingers walking up the veins of your leg
July 2012
12 posts
With hands at your sides. With your mouth locked shut. No, you won’t say a thing but inside it tears you up. Anyone who says hello, for them you feel love. No matter what I can’t help but think you are a fool. A humble ghost who sees herself as so much more. You invented the style of doing nothing and saying you’re giving it your all. You say you’re fashion but you’re...
I’ll sit here with my head against a wall. With fifty years to ponder. Is there any reason to be here at all?
every girl with cut off sleeves and tired eyes
xochtil. yours.
forever.
Love brought me here, love brought me here. Love brought me here. In your mouth there are teeth, and on the trees there are leaves. In my head, there is sadness. Delivered by you, and only to me. As a lover fantastic, as a friend you were saddening. On a cross your naked body lay bare, scraped and screaming. Whip
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